My House Is Too Quiet and This Family Is Sweet

My house is so quiet…almost too quiet. The dead silence gives room for my mind to bounce around amongst all the feelings inside it. Feelings of jealousy, longing,  guilt, sadness. I want to put everything away and make it right. There is so much I don’t understand.  Why isn’t it easy. Why can’t we all just agree to disagree and live in happiness. It’s a crying shame.

I apologize if my soberness is exhausting and cumbersome.

But this is a place for me to let it out.

So slap me across the face, tell me I’m wrong for saying and feeling what I feel. But it’s ME and it’s REAL

Oh… how I want… how I long… for something. Something sweet. I can smell the sweetness and rub my hand against it’s smooth skin. I dream about holding you in my arms and feeling your warmth and love. Pacing barefoot in the night and staring at the moon while holding you in my arms. A sweet kiss on your soft cheek. A bond that is forever inseparable.

A baby

I will be patient. I will try my hardest to put the jealousy and guilt away. I will try to love what I already have more. I will try to untie the knot in my stomach and ease the pain. I will turn to that which is more important.

….for you

Enjoy this perfectly sweet family, shot on all film. xoxo

 

 



11 Comments

  1. robin marie wrote:

    Very well put. The jealously monster always seems to be lurking in my house. The comparison monster too. Christian reminds me this life isn’t meant to be fair. And I still have a hard time remembering that.

  2. EmilyH wrote:

    Love these! As usual, your work is beautiful.

  3. Jess F wrote:

    Beautiful images! I remember photographing her dressed in a bride’s dress YEARS ago :) It was a model shoot I did with Kristen (a mutual friend). Anyway, you did a lovely job. Also, don’t worry my dear, it will happen when it is supposed to. I remember feeling anxious when we didn’t get pregnant right away with our 2nd. Lots of emotional feelings went around. Its great you can express how you feel, and hopefully it will help get you through. Hugs!

  4. Ashley S. wrote:

    I really love this shoot. Great job Kali. I’m sure this family adores these photos.

    I’m sorry you’re aching for a baby right now and not able to have one yet. I’m sure the time will come. It’s so hard to be patient when we want what we want right now. I hope it happens soon for you.

  5. natalie smith wrote:

    Oh my gosh!!! These are beautiful pictures! You are so good Kali!

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